I finished reading this book yesterday and could not sleep for a while. I kept thinking about the book and the protagonist, the author, Katie Green and her eating disorder and her life and how she made her peace with her condition. The book is also a lot more than just that. It is about the choices we make in life; it is about what makes us and what does not, the mistakes we make and ultimately also about forgiving ourselves in the larger scheme of things.
I do not know how or when an eating disorder happens, but after reading the book, I could empathize a lot with the author’s condition. I emotionally eat a lot. I eat when I am upset. I eat when I am sad and then there have also been times, when I have wanted to throw up everything I ate, because I did not feel good about myself. I could also see Katie going through the same as she chronicles that side of her life in “Lighter than my Shadow”.
All I can say is that it takes a lot of courage to bare your story. To talk about what you felt and how you felt – to speak of your friends’ reaction, your family and their support, the emotional scars and how one tries so hard to do what one wants to. The need to be accepted and the need to remain stable are depicted beautifully through Katie’s illustrations. The sense of madness and how knowing that life is falling apart and needs to be mended is the strongest tone and voice of the book.
Most of the conditions come from our own society. I guess we place a lot of value on how one should look and what should the parameters me. I see a lot of young ones – teens mostly who are constantly worried about how much they eat and the next waist size they will reach to. The book is probably perfect for that audience – only because in a way it is about a life and what we learn as we go along.
Katie Green infuses life and tells her story the way it is meant to be – with great emotion and sensitivity. She distances herself and watches her story unfold and give it to the reader, the way it is – honestly and makes one belief that there is hope for all of us after all.